I've got periods when I'm just so goddamn HAPPY and I've got periods when I'm so far away from that as you can get . I laugh, cry tears of joy and talk nonstop about how good my life is a normal Tuesday while the day before all I wanted was to pull the covers over my head because nothing is right. Today I ate good Questbars, bought new reeeaaallly comfy pants, have the best friends and school ended early, and I'm honestly close to tears just because I'm so happy. The big things are based on the little ones.
Yesterday I was down all night because I couldn't work out . I refused to study study , was too tired to talk to mom etc.
There have been some half mediocre weeks. Just waiting for the time to pass and felt "good", but no more. This peak shows that I'm on my way back . Regular Sandra who gets teary-eyed when grandma calling an ordinary afternoon or burn-in-hell pissed when something isn't working as it should. Sandra giving her everything in everything, or don't do anything at all. And hell , I love it . Those who are not like-minded people might not fall into as deep bottoms but they sure as hell are never as overlyhappy as I'm either.
That I would come to is that today I am so OVERLY FUCKING HAPPY . I wrote it to Magdalena and after some talk about it , I was almost in tears just because she is so beautiful. My friends and everyone around me is so damn good. Because my new pants , because workouts later this week , I get to coach the world's best students this weekend and I get to make refereedebut the same day, one of my most beautfil friends is coming visiting, tbecause good food is so damn good and because we're planning our weekend (as you will hear about later ). I'm just so happy because of everything. Right now , I love everything in the world and if someone tries to tell me something else I'll just laugh and hug them . My beautiful life. Days like this , I love myself.
Cried of happiness for hours!